Jesus is always a good reason to smile.

A couple days ago, I felt kinda down.
My mom and brother were in Dallas for a couple days on a mission trip and my dad was at work, and my normal everyday hangout buddy was gone at camp, so I had hours to myself. Also, a couple weeks ago, I broke up with my longgg time boyfriend. I had honestly felt complete and total peace with it for weeks. In fact, I kept praising God for making something I thought would be so difficult, so easy. But this one day, it was like satan was just playing tricks with my mind.
It was really easy to feel lonely.

But God helped me through it.
Isn't He just wonderful?

Anyway, at first I was letting myself feel lonely. And then it was like God just spoke to me. He said "Why are you doing this to yourself? You know I didn't go anywhere." And I just sat there and realized how true that is, and how easy it is to tell yourself "I'm doing what God wants" and totally believe it but sometimes still feel He's not totally there supporting you.

But since then, it's like, I've got this passion. I feel free, and yet totally surrounded. He's made it SO clear that He loves me.

All that loneliness is gone.

And all I can do is sing. I just find myself, in the car especially, singing out songs to him. All of them. Even if it's just me jamming to my Taylor Swift cd (don't judge, she is my favorite) I just smile, knowing that I'm smiling for Him. And even more, because of Him.

And so, I wanted to remind you, that even on a really terrible, boring, or lonely day, Jesus is always a reason to smile.

summer

Well, we had a near panic in my household today.
I did the CPR class, which had to be a certain one for nursing school. I did it a couple weeks ago. I have been slowly knocking out the list of things I've had to do to turn in to the nursing school. I finished it all, and was putting all my paperwork in the mail when I noticed the CPR card said "heartsaver".
Which is not allowed for nursing school.
I was in a panic, but it was Saturday, so the hospital section that gave the course was closed when I called to ask about the class. On Monday we found out they had given us the wrong card. Close call.

But now all my nursing stuff is turned in and it's a happy day. I've been thinking "I can't wait till microbiology ends, I can't wait till microbiology ends" over and over, but now I'm realizing that when it ends, I'll have less than a week with my family before going back to school and summer being over. And though I'm super super excited about this year of school, and seeing my friends, and rooming with a great friend, and having a fun job, I still don't want summer to end. Not yet.

All in all, even with microbiology, it has been a great summer. One of the best I've ever had.

California

Well. I have not been writing on here at all! I will start slowly catching back up.
I have slowly been knocking out all the things on my to-do list from last time.
Shots- done. Miserable, and I have to finish the hep B shot soon, but hey, at least it's pretty much done.
YEC- done. It was amazing.
Microbiology- started now. It is MISERABLE. HORRIBLE. SLOWLY SUCKING MY LIFE AWAY. I mean, 5 hours, 5 days a week, only to come home to read and study. But it will be over soon.

But on a whole other note, I went to California to be with my sister, brother-in-law, and her two most precious kiddos. It was an amazing 10 days full of:
reading to Ry,
cuddling Caders,
making headbands to sell,
eating chocolate cinammon bears,
playing card games,
swimming in freezing weather,
getting spoiled by Les making me clothes in no time at all,
eating yummyyyy shrimp,
playing at parks,
watching Arrested Development,
and playing bunk-o.
It was beyond amazing.














I love them, and I really really wish they lived closer.